Sunday, June 22, 2008

Urgent Letter to Myself

First off,

Five Rewards:

1.       Mani/Pedi

2.       Great Haircut by a (Quasi-)Outlandishly Paid Professional

3.       Wicked Tickets

4.       Lollapalooza Tickets

5.       New Desk!

There is a lot to lose, but don't think about it so much.  Like skinny women do, focus on ten pounds.  After each 10 lost, you will be eligible for the above prizes.  Not to mention, you'll be able to fit into all those professional clothes you bought last summer, you sexy thang, you!

Like Tim wrote to Dawn in the conclusion of The Office (BBC) – Never give up.

You know you, you're always giving up.  You used to be better than that.  When did you start giving up so easily?  When did you start acting like a victim?  Get on, girl!

In the next month, work on these 3 goals:

1.       Make your own dinner and pack your lunch.  You have the time.  If you don't have the energy, you'll be stuck with eating a Nutrisystem meal.  Two words:  LAST RESORT.

2.       Squeeze in more activity:

a.       Get up 5 minutes earlier each week, and walk a ways before grabbing the bus.

b.      Go work out over lunch.  It's free.  You don't need to go buy your lunch outside because you brought yours, 'member?

c.       You planned on going to Crunch 5 days/week.  Do that, if only to log minor time on the elliptical, take a shower, and/or silently slobber over that tall Middle-Eastern guy.

3.       You are beautiful.  Don't make any cracks to the contrary.

When you're spiraling into negative territory, think everyone's against you, or overpowered by images that tend to steer you away from your goal, just think "neti neti neti."  Not this, not this, not this.

Be decent to yourself.  Live again.  Bud to blossom.

So there's that,



Anonymous said...

yesterday was the first time i read your blog. and i have to be honest it made me sad. i want you to live without thinking you need to reward yourself with life.

you can have a great haircut without losing lbs. in fact, looking cuter will inspire you to lose weight. feel good about yourself now, not 10lbs from now.

i look forward to continuing reading your blog. i hope you realize that your weight isn't your life. your life is your life and you shouldn't let anything get in the way of you living it.

Laura said...

Thanks for reading!

Anonymous said...


why did you delete our exchange?

i want you to know that i wasn't trying to offend you. simply offering you reader's pov.

i apologize if suggesting therapy upset you. i only know that it helped me out TREMENDOUSLY with my family problems and eating disorder. both were VERY connected and therapy helped me see that, face it and find coping skills.

i hope you are able to find happiness with yourself and conquer your binge eating. best of luck to you.